My Beautiful Girl,

There are so many things I wish I could have said to you, and now that you’re gone, my heart is aching with the weight of all those unspoken words.

I keep replaying memories, moments where I could have done better, where I could have loved you more clearly, more loudly. I feel like I let you down, and the pain of that is heavy in my heart.

I want you to know – I have and will always love you. Even in the moments when we were distant, in the years when we didn’t see each other face to face, there was never a day, never a second, when I didn’t carry you in my heart. You are my child, my baby, my light. I should have told you that more often. I wish with every part of me that I had.

It breaks me to think of the time we lost, but I want you to know that my love for you was never broken. I know I made mistakes, I failed in ways that are hard for me to forgive myself for. But you are one of the greatest gifts of my life. You will always be my beautiful, amazing baby girl, and I will love you forever.

I miss you so much, sweet angel. I miss the sound of your voice, the warmth of your smile, the way you could light up a room just by being in it. I miss what could have been —what I wish I could go back and fix. I wish I could hold you one more time and tell you all these things, but instead, I am pouring my heart into this letter with the hope that you can somehow feel my love from Heaven.

Even though you are no longer here in this world with me, I will carry you in my heart for the rest of my life. I pray with everything in me that you knew how much I loved you, even when our relationship was strained. You are my heart, my soul, my everything.

I don’t know if I ever said it enough, but I am proud of you, Kay – so incredibly proud of you. I am sorry if I ever made you feel like you weren’t a priority. That’s on me, and I will carry that with me always. But please know that loving you is the easiest, most natural thing in the world for me. You deserved everything good, and I hope you’ve found peace now.

Thank you for being my daughter, for teaching me so much, even in ways I didn’t realize at the time. Thank you for the moments we shared, for the love you gave, and for simply being you, my kind-hearted girl.

I will love you forever and ever and ever, and I’ll hold you in my heart until the day we meet again in Heaven.

With all my love,

Mommy